Darkness within …

The darkness encloses me,

It is empty, dead, and sad.

I search, but I find no one, nothing

A light shines in the distance

I run to it, but it once again dies

before I reach it.

The darkness presses in on me,

It is cold, harsh, and silent.

I am alone in this place, void of

life, peace, warmth, and feeling

I look everywhere, yet nowhere into nothingness.

I am alone, but I know I will be rescued some day,

or at least, I hope that I shall be rescued, for surely,

one could not live alone, forever. . .

But little faith do I give this hope,

for deep down inside me, I know I am alone.

In the depths of this world are truth,

kindness, warmth, love, and understanding.

This tough, hard shell of evil, cruelty, sadism,

silence, and darkness surrounds this inner core of life.

Bitter, cold winds tear at my soul;

I feel myself going, fading away

To a better place or worse, I know not

Only that I must be saved soon,

before I go. . .

As I wander in this never-ending void;

I feel the nothingness beneath me cave in,

And I fall into a pit of indeterminable magnitude,

I release a morbid wail that resounds off of the black borders

that I cannot ever reach,

Of this world seemingly forever

I plunge deeper, and deeper into an even more solemn

and lonely place;

and When I come to rest, I know that I am truly

alone, and I will be for all eternity.

As I wander in this never-ending void,

I come to a Wall of substantial darkness, evil and crime, intangible

Yet I see an opening in the center

an opening to heaven, hell, or beyond

I know not which,

But I press onward, and after eons of travel,

I see a light, a warm, loving, kind light ahead.

I run to it longingly, and enter the realm of bliss

Oh, how the days there are warm, sun be bright,

Never it rains, simply the eternal mist, grass rolls

knoll after knoll, green and lush

The oceans and seas are a sparkling blue

And how the fish jump and frolic

Animals of Jungle! plain, wild

Play, and jump, having naught a care in the world.

Rivers run and jump over the rocks,

Foaming with delight and excitement

trees emerald green,

sylvan life at its fullest,

sun's rays soft, mellow

Warming all, light to my path

Cooling breezes, swaying leaves

Rainbows- myriads of colors, forms

Droplets that fall to I and the soil

Serenity surrounds me, and I relax

How I lay me down to sleep,

with such beautiful ephemeral dreams,

To wake, . . . where? Oblivion,

or where I once dreamed I lay, in the light of

knowledge, happiness, and

life?

The life is not worth living, if it has not

yet been to truly live.